

In addition to others’ answers here, I suggest reading over this document whenever you get frustrated by Debian: Don’t Beak Debian
Debian has a particular philosophy for its design choices. Using non-standard sources.list entries, for instance, can break your system in the future. You’ll have a much better time in the long run if you come to understand why Debian is the way it is



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